Why be the same when you can be different.

If you are the person I am about to describe then I do apologise, you might know a person like this, you might have been this person or you might have the same views as me. Whatever you do do not take this to offence as these are my views and we all have our our thoughts and opinions.

Are you sick of how similar we all are? How we all try to be the same and find anyone that stands out weird? How under pressure you feel to fit in? you may be 12 or you may be 30, you will still have the same pressure you did back then?

Emos, chavs, goths, hippies, bikers and barbie dolls, there are always people that fit one of those stereotypes, people afraid to be on there own and not fit into a group or category.

You may be that barbie doll, that puts layer upon layer of make-up, hiding her real beauty to either impress some guy or friend, or hide your insecurities.

You may be that goth or emo, dressed in black, faking having suicidal thoughts and depression, taking drugs and liking heavy metal, just because your peers fit a stereotype (that stereotype) dosen’t mean you need to.

You may be that hippie or hippie wannabe, you may believe by being a hippie you are being yourself and different from the rest of society, you may be spiritual in reiki and chakras, close to nature, on drugs and covered in tie dye and patchwork, but being a hippie just in case you didn’t know is a stereotype itself.

You may be that chav that wears your Nike and Addidas tracksuit, that listens to rap music and puts on a massive show to make your personality as chavvy as your look.

You may be that biker that rides a motorbike, that’s beefy with tatts all over your arms, growing a beard like Father Christmas, gaining your confidence through being a part of something.

You may create or make up a certain thing in order to fit in, but don’t make up anything why should you have to change or make yourself appear different in order to feel excepted or in order for people to like you when people probably already do.

Or you may be me, you may have developed your own style you may have had a huge interest in creating a change within yourself and decided that you want to take every step into making sure you can become the person that you really are, you may like every music genre from classical to pop to jazz and indie, you may put on your make-up every morning but for yourself only, you may walk down the street with some extreme outfit which you put on without even thinking about it, you may be your own unique category, your own person.

The more you make these changes to be different, the more happier and at ease you will feel, so please take my advice and make change in order to create the peace in yourself to achieve the perfect level of happiness that you need.

Good luck on this little challenge

Love Melissa x


Sydney Travel

My travels around Sydney and the Central Coast between end September 2017 to mid February 2018.

Australia was a real life changer for me and believe it’s where i should try and reside.

Much love, Lissa Bee x

How to stay alive when you are poor

We all know that life can be pretty hard, especially in the money oriented world in which we live in.

Over the last few months I have struggled for food, for a place to sleep and most importantly for happiness.

I then realised that all that I spend adds up.. a $5 coffee, a $20 meal and even the little things like phone credit and transportation fair, I have struggled with.

I have a make believe luxury idealist life in which I shouldn’t due to my income. Yet I still have my five meals a day out as well as my morning macchiato and croissants.

So I am now going to share with you how I survived…

1. I ate plain pasta/spaghetti – with nothing but rosemary, basil, chilli flakes, garlic purée and olive oil.

2. I ate rice – with any seasoning I already had.

3. I depended on the help of others and for my family to send me money.

4. I ate at lentil as anything – a run by donation vegan cafe here in Sydney. Though I could never donate.

5. I ate instant noodles – these were the cheapest at just $2.50 for 5 lots of noodles.

6. I just had a lot of pasta and rice as it would have costed more for veggies and sauce.

All of this was due to leaving several jobs and being unemployed without any form of money for 2 months.

Tonight ended like this – Poem Entry

Sister Emma
Where can I begin.

Her temper goes so quickly.
Her emotions flood.
She scares me or is it just sadness I feel.

Sharing tips I already know of and have tried.
Which i have found to be useless.

I created this successfully fail proof plan Of which I only received negativity from. From Emma.

People wonder why all my thoughts, views and emotions are sheltered.


Time to forget this negativity and move on.

Love to myself 🌻

I deserve nice kind people
I deserve love and positivity

Journal entry – Montauk lover

This American montauk surfer is still in my head daily. 

I said I loved him in a goodbye note and now I hear nothing from him. 

I guess I’m kinda crazy but I enjoyed the two weeks we spent together traveling up the east coast of Australia, road tripping from Byron bay were we both met to Brisbane were I had to see him go to paradises Sumbawa and Bali. The exact word was ‘infatuated’ but it still means love right..

By day we’d go on adventures in his rented car, stopping at whatever cliffs we’d find overlooking the sea. Spotting dolphins using his binoculars which he kept in his car. Following rainbows and on road trips. 
By night we’d travel to the lighthouse or look for an empty beach to stargaze at. Which is where he taught me the big-little dipper way to finding the North Star none of which I understood despite his effort into explaining it to me. 

We’d share donuts and IPA beers (yuk right) Toast and banana. 

I gave him an ultimatum to stay here traveling with me but I guess it was kinda a stupid question to ask after a short time of knowing each other. 

He never seemed to care as he was leaving, which makes me question everything that happened during my time with him and leaves me feeling worse. 

Bye forever.